Aftermath: Coming together

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Takes place shortly after the episode " The Road" how both Lilly and Scotty spent time helping each other but begin to analize who they really are inside.


That night after this case had been solved Lilly knew there was in fact still hope from her. Inside she was awakening from an almost zombie mode that had been lingering since the shooting. Now heading home Scotty caught up with her, his face full of worry and unease after what had happened. He wanted to be there but now Lilly allowed him in needing his comfort and safety.
Even during the car ride Scotty knew she was the only thing that kept him going. If he had lost Lilly there was no telling what he would have done. John Smith tried to get inside of her head but was unable to access since the invisible walls were like a firewall set on the highest level. He still worried but didn’t question how Lilly still had hope that Brenda was alive.

This was one of the many things Scotty cherished about Lilly. She taught him so much about why the victims mattered that without her he wouldn’t have the courage to go on. Now as Lilly rested her head down on his chest she too felt comforted by the sound of his heartbeat.

“You all right Lil” Scotty asked while gently rubbing her soft back
Lilly drew in a small breath but didn’t answer she just wanted to lie there quietly with him. Now closing her eyes she let herself sleep. For while he watched her listened to each breath hoping his comfort could in fact chase the demons that had took over preventing his girl from sleeping. Scotty could see the beauty in her face knowing she was the one he truly loved.

Then an hour later he noticed that Lilly was awake” You thinking about the case still”?
“ No I never realized the first thing we ever heard was the sound of mother’s heartbeat, then when she’s taken from you that comfort is gone”.
Scotty understood” I know you loved her”, trying not to sound like a complete idiot.

Lilly felt saddened now rolling onto the other side; he lips then meet ing up with hers. She knew this was a real love that was felt deep down inside. Breaking away he smiled” Proud of you, always have been”.

Now allowing his head to rest down on her chest, Scotty too got when Lilly was talking about. It wasn’t the sound but the feeling of comfort that the two needed. Listening to each beat sent a wave of calmness through his entire body. In fact he also knew how much about love they didn’t understand but wanted.

Perhaps everything happened for a reason especially how the two met in the Observation room. Then four years later Scotty saved Lilly’s life in there, how they managed to hold onto one thing; Friendship. Sure they had their share of fights but all in all the bond between the two remained very strong.

“You are why I keep on going” he whispered” Never going to stop protecting you”.

Those words sank deeply into the depths of Lilly’s heart knowing he was the only person who never saw her for who she was and not some messed up woman with problems as big as size of their country. No Scotty gave her that respect, love and safety that no one else had or would have done. His words were real and trusted.

Lilly didn’t feel alone when she was with him. He was the one whom she could always turn to and knowing he would understand. Then her ears heard the words leaving his mouth with “ I love you” which didn’t make her quill up like a porcupine and wanting to hide behind those thick walls.

If fact she didn’t as the words flew out of her mouth landed into his heart. Now sealing it with a kiss without feeling the urge to push him away, and decide to work later with fear immersed in her mind. It had been engraved into her mind that she didn’t want people that close. Lilly was going to do everything to accomplish her own hopes and dreams. This case sure opened up her mind, and bringing hopes which was well in need.

“ I love you” Scotty whispered with his warm eyes looking right into hers as she let the words speak from the depths of her own heart. With their lips coming together like glue their hearts beating together as one, as her façade crumbled.

Before long she was back in Scotty’s arms letting his heartbeat soothe her to sleep. Now falling into a deep sleep the demons disappeared never to be seen again. He then pulled up the covers over Lilly keeping his beautiful girl warm. Scotty too go comfortable before falling asleep still holding onto her. By morning he had awoken making sure Lilly was alright.

Her eyes then slowly flickered opened as he gently moved a strand away” Morning Lil”

“Morning” she whispered letting out a small breath. For awhile they remained still before Lilly rolled onto the other side facing him. He smiled before giving her kiss as she felt even more relaxed not wanting to leave the bed. With the morning sunshine peeking through the blinds, the two continued lying there enjoying life for once.
They had two days off and work wasn’t going to interfere. Not when the two needed to spent some time healing together.


tbc...

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Taking time to heal together is always, always good! They need it!

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An hour later Scotty came back handing her a hot cup of coffee as Lilly sipped it, feeling the rush of caffeine through her body. This probably was the first time in many that she just sat in bed without talking about the case. Even Scotty felt the same way before putting down the cup as he saw how content Lilly was just lounging around in bed.

With a spark she moved over as her lips moved onto his before deepening it. Scotty breathed harder pulling her onto him needing to feel this real true love. Perhaps this was in the cards for them to be together or maybe it was just fate. As Lilly felt the maddening pounding of her own heart she didn’t back down but instead resumed kissing him some more.
Scotty pulled away wanting afraid to love her also the fact if he made a mistake it could ruin what they already had. Maybe he shouldn’t be with anyone and live alone then he saw what Lilly had feared the most. Now getting off the bed, Lilly stopped him” Maybe there reason why we’re so along is we are afraid to let someone into our lives”.

“That a load of Garbage Lil” Scotty said as she had in up against the door” Look at us we’re not someone spouse or parent, just the two of us.” Placing a hand on his chest” Don’t you want something different”?
He pushed her away before they both studied each other. Scotty was breaking but tried to keep up his tough guy façade even though it was eating at him. It was the weakness that never ceased to escape taunting him each and every given moment. Lilly then unfolded his fists” You love me don’t you”?
“I do Lil “while each of them was breathless before he decided to leave the bedroom. She followed not wanting the one person in the world that had meant so much. At the bottom of the stairs Lilly was met up with a kiss of love. Scotty knew he couldn’t leave his girl not here or ever, as his arms wrapped around her tightly.
“I love you Lil always” he whispered as Lilly once again found her comfort. Just moments later she changed as the two headed back to his place so Scotty could get some fresh clothes on. Looking around the apartment she saw photos of family knowing hers was gone. Christina was on the run somewhere and her mother was dead. Lilly realized she had only Scotty which was permanent figure in her life.

Now coming out with a pair of jeans and a top on, he gently pulled off the elastic band letting a golden sheet hang down “Think you’re more beautiful with it down”.
Smiling now Lilly took his hand as they walked down the streets together. Now everything felt different but in a good way. Feeling the warm sunshine upon her skin was a welcome relief as she took some time to catch every detail that had been missed. Life wasn’t nearly that bad but being stuck behind that firewall of hers was.

Several minutes later the two were laughing about a joke. Scotty turned looking at the smile embedded on Lilly’s face” I missed that smile of yours, didn’t think I’d ever see it again” knowing the effect the shooting had left on her. In fact he realized her being alive meant more than anything else in the world. Were they both afraid to love or was it something hiding beneath their façade that prevented them from doing so?


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What Lilly was realizing was the fact she did trust Scotty, knowing he was the only person that could understand and love her. Although they had their ups and downs their friendship was still very strong. He knew right after the shooting that she needed him but couldn’t break down the walls that hid a guarded woman that wanted to be loved.

Scotty wanted to but the two know about being rejected all too well and didn’t want to face a repeat. It had to do will the wrong people they had each dated. He wasn’t too bright on his choices but not his heart ached for one person; Lilly, just being with her made him not wanting to rush into other things, which had gotten him nowhere in the past.

Now holding onto her hand he too felt alive. Maybe love wasn’t all about sex but something deeper, which was a journey the two wanted to face together. Peering into a sea of blue Scotty knew he had to take that chance knowing how much love he had for her.

“How about we try dating” he said as Lilly face warmed in the sunshine” Think we should”.
Scotty leaned closer” We’ll take it slow just need each other” before she kissed him confirming their newly found relationship. His heart was pounding inside making him not feel like a loser for asking that. Even Lilly knew she needed to take that risk especially with someone who would never try to change who she was.

In fact that night after seeing a movie together the two were watching a game in bed. Lilly liked just lying in his arms without feeling an ounce of pressure to have sex. In fact they both weren’t ready for that level yet, not wanting to tempt fate.
Scotty was completely relaxed as he continued to watch the game with his girl. It felt right at this very moment which was good. Then a moment of needing each other came on them as he pinned her down Deeping their kiss. Lilly wait five long hard years to feel his firm lips upon hers; knowing how well it felt to finally have his love.

Then as the team scored a basket he looked up before sharing another kiss. It felt right but never went further than that. Scotty was scared he’d screw up and have that ice queen façade come out again. Lilly then went upstairs needing sometime to take inventory of her own life. Now standing in front of a mirror she looked at her scar but now didn’t see Ed or her dying anymore.

In fact Lilly knew she was alive all too well. Even placing a palm on her chest she could feel her own heartbeat. It was a feeling knowing that inside the only two things weren’t taken from her at the end: One being her owns hope then other knowing that throughout everything Scotty was always there for the good and bad.

Now getting into bed Lilly felt lucky to be alive and in love; with someone who wasn’t going to ever change who she was. As Scotty got in ten minutes later he then rested his head on her chest letting it comfort him. He too had nightmares not as bad but ones from the day of the shooting. His worst fear of losing Lilly forever.

“Sounds damaged right” Lilly asked quietly.
“No sounds as beautiful like you” he replied” I’m glad you’re alive”. Now the two looked up at each other with tears” Couldn’t imagine not being about to protect or love you again”
Lilly let her tears stream downward knowing this was not a weakness. In fact he too was crying feeling the pain of both their demons.
“I know but we’re here with each other” she said suddenly realizing what had just been said. Was it the realization of the fact Lilly was now living in the present rather than reliving her own past? Possibly but maybe it was that inner strength telling her there was still hope.

Whatever it was she felt even stronger now” So where are you taking me tomorrow night”?
“Dinner and dancing” Scotty replied seeing the look of romance displayed on her face. Lilly was willing to take this change knowing this was a good thing. It wasn’t to find her own inner happiness but to be with someone whom she trusted.


tbc..

[cellogal]

I think this is exactly what they need! Cuddling, a couple kisses, and a date. Awesome.

[lsr]

Awww, this is so cute. It just makes me think even more of how good they would be together. Great job describing all the lovely scenes between them! Looking forward to reading more LII2!

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I hope to get the next chapter up soon..

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Comments and suggestions are always welcome, since everything can improve

This first day wasn’t like anything Lilly was expecting. In fact when Scotty had mentioned the name of the place to her it sent chills of wonder coursing through her veins. Now searching through her closet and finding only her work clothes among sweats and a pair of jeans, Lilly knew she had to go shopping for a dress or skirt.

This new concept was very new to her, as beautiful dresses and skirts lined the aisles. Now selecting a few to try on Lilly began to enjoy just treating herself to buying clothes. Who would have thought the queen of the homicide division would take time to browses around looking for this when there were a million unsolved cases.

After finding the perfect dress, Lilly didn’t try it on. In fact that night when she stood in front of the mirror looking at her in it, it fit so perfectly. That wasn’t the problem it was the nervousness of the first date jitters that sent her heart beating fast. Never before had she felt this way that it made her throw up.

This nervousness caused millions of thoughts about how this night could go wrong. Then drawing in deep breath Lilly had to take this chance especially that it was with Scotty. Now letting her hair down her went straight to the restaurant. On arrival their eyes instantly locked with each other, as he greeted her with a kiss.

“You look beautiful Lil” Scotty said” Never seen you in a dress”?

Now allowing him to escort her back to their table, Lilly was at a loss for words just by seeing this place. Even now sitting together as a candle burned in the middle, the two felt so awkward since none of them really had a real date.
“You take anyone else here” Lilly asked feeling her heart beating nearly ten times faster now. Scotty shook his head before placing his hand over hers before ordering a bottle of red wine. After the two had chose out their meals, Lilly soon relaxed knowing she was safe and loved with him. Even over dinner more laughter and stories were exchanged, none having to do with work.

Now feeding her lovingly some of his dinner, Scotty noticed the romance swirling around in her eyes. When the music began to play him silently got up and held out his hand. Lilly was taken aback as she took his hand feeling another rapid beat of her own heart.
First the dance started out slow giving the two a chance to enjoy this moment together. Then Scotty twirled her around as Lilly laughed softly. He was in heaven just seeing his girl so content and full of life, but also brought out his romantic side that had been buried for a long time.

“Never seen this like this” Lilly commented before Scotty grinned.
“How about this” as he dipped her seeing two blue eyes looking into his. Raising her up slowly their lips met up briefly feeling that rush made them wanted more of each other. As the danced some more some people watched seeing how much the two loved each other.

The romantic night didn’t end at the restaurant in fact during the walk home it began to rain. Somehow it made it even better as they stopped letting before kissing each other. All Lilly could feel is his firm lips upon hers before his tongue slid into her mouth. By the time they had finally made it back to her place, Scotty ended up spending the night.

With all things said after getting into bed, he wondered why she was so quiet
“You okay Lil, haven’t said much after we left”.
Lilly was lying on his chest” Just never had a date like this, I guess it feels so new”.
He nodded” Sorry it made you feel awkward Lil”.

She looked up “No Scotty, tonight was fine. Plus the fact I’ve got a sexy man now in my life”.
He looked around before Lilly kissed him. Scotty felt better knowing she wasn’t feeling that way, but that smile of hers always brightened up his day. It was one that had been missed since the shooting had occurred.
“We need more nights like this, but your head is always glued to the case”.
Lilly wasn’t listening but remained soothed by his heartbeat, in fact her thoughts were still tonight. Just dancing with him made her feel so alive. Sure this was their first date, but it was well worth going out together. Even by the next morning, he realized they were both very late to work.
“Get up” Scotty said noticing that she didn’t budge” Lil”.
Lilly was so deeply immersed in sleep that her body wasn’t about to wake up anytime soon. He hated to wake her up but they did have case to solve. After making up an excuse that they were both ill, Scotty lay back before falling back into dreamland; only to be awaken several hours later.

“Why the hell did you let me sleep” she yelled.
He sat up still halfway” Told boss we aren’t coming in today” as Lilly now had on a devilish grin on her face” What excuse is that”?
“Boss thinks we’re both ill” before settling back onto her side of the bed. Soon after the two fell back to sleep needing some well needed rest. As the clock ticked one pm, he watched Lilly’s chest rising and falling slowly. Though she looked like an angel as Scotty wondered about what she was dreaming about.
Was it one about having a family of her own or the justice that she brings to the victims? No in fact Lilly had been dreaming about them at a fair together. As they went down a roller coaster together she screamed in delight letting the euphoria of that sweep her away. That feeling made her feel so free and awake nothing else seemed to matter.
Even when Lilly held onto Scotty’s hand the excitement between the music blaring and the rides gave it a romantic feel to it. Just laughing and having a good time made everything else in her life seem to be brighter.

While she continued having this dream, Scotty bent down to kiss her cheek. He then pulled up the blankets still adoring his sleeping angel, who seemed so peaceful yet beautiful at the same time. Within each breath he was glad to still have his girl by his side. Lilly would always be the reason for what made him get out of bed in the morning. Now faking a lie Scotty lay back letting his inner thoughts subside for now. This was real for once and wanted to do everything in his power not to break Lilly’s heart. A little later on she awoke finding that he had made some hot tea for her.

“No nightmares” he asked
Lilly didn’t answer but felt good not to keep seeing herself just after being shot. For once her dream contained love instead of pure sadness that had been etched into her heart. Since now the day was over the two knew there would be more good dates to come.


Upon returning to work, Lilly was sitting down on the warehouse floor pouring through a new case. Now chewing on her lip she was ever bit stronger now after facing her own demons. When Scotty saw her it reminded him of when they had first met just five years ago.

“Thought Vera would have been here”?
Lilly looked up” Think eating all that casserole got to him and you love to stay but need to wash your hair”.
He chuckled but pulls her up off the floor. Getting closer she brushed her hand across his face” Kind of need of a shave” as Scotty pushed her against the boxes before his tongue roamed around her mouth.
“Scotty” she breathed almost forgetting where she was. Lilly was in love but then heard the sound of Vera’s voice as he made his way over to him. Now breaking away the two managed to not be caught but their newly found love was only getting stronger.


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Somehow after that kissing escapade in the warehouse, the two found themselves once again hard at work. By nightfall that was once again another story especially when Scotty had received a phone calls from Lilly who was standing outside his apartment. Now allowing her to enter he couldn’t believe this relationship was really happening.

When he opened the door they two shared a long deep kiss. Lilly gave a seductive smile before kicking the door closed.
“Got a break on the case Lil” Scotty asked
“No” before turning around” You’re in need of a shave right” before pulling a chair closer to the kitchen sink. Scotty followed as she pushed him down as the water began to splash onto his face before applying the cream. As Lilly lathered him up she moved closer giving him one small kiss. while the he let her shave him.

Sometime after that he ran his fingers across his face feeling the smoothness. No one had ever done that for him but this was a start. Then while wrapping his arms around Lilly’s waist he whispered softly into her ear. Her cheeks becoming rosy from the soft words that send her heart beating fast. After ordering in some food the two sat down together.

While they watched “Resurrecting the Champ” Scotty turned toward her” That blonde looks a lot like you especially with that expression”.
Lilly let out a small laugh” She’s not so screwed up like I am”.
He then pulled her closer” If I thought you were messed up, why would I have stayed in Homicide”? It now made perfect sense that Scotty had stuck by her side. Even the day after her mother had died Scotty came and offered his comfort. Lilly was glad to hear the sound of his voice giving her a sense that she was still safe and loved.

Even when he placed his hand on her shoulder, she wanted too much to be held but the walls weren’t about to crumble then. Instead it got raised when Stillman did that much later on, turning her into a porcupine with its quills aiming high.
Sure Lilly thought of him as a father figure but found her opening up to Scotty more. Call it crazy but at the end of the day she still had someone that was it her side. Little did she know he too was plagued with his own demons from a past?

The problem was that Scotty always had to act and remain tough even though he felt weak on the inside. Even as a child he wanted to be there for others but got pushed aside, later on losing his first love Elisa to suicide after her own illness took full control. Scotty felt stupid for not being there for her when she was in need of him most.

It was eating away at him fast before slamming his fists down on the table” I gave up on her Lil, it’s my fault she killed herself”.
Lilly took his hand” No Elisa had to end her own suffering. She was mentally sick not you could have done to prevent it from happening”.
Scotty was beginning to feel even angrier” I acted like I was embarrassed to have her around. Even cheating on her”.
“Like that day we first met” the blonde asked seeing him nodding” You want to love someone badly like I do but are afraid of being alone”.
He took her hand” I shouldn’t have let you gone to work that day. Could have lost you forever, that bullet should have been in me not you”.

Lilly moved closed allowing him to hold her” You saved me Scotty what IAD did was stupid. I was wrong for putting my own life in danger” as the two began to share a moment of tears unleashing the inner guilty that had been swirling around for some time.
“Glad you were with me during this last case. Especially with him” Lilly said.
He nodded’ couldn’t let anyone else harm you Lil, not when I love you so much” before kissing her.

After calming down the two resumed watching the movie trying to move past their inner demons. Scotty was so filled with guilt it was becoming overbearing knowing how much he wasn’t there for Lilly after the shooting. Teasing her about counseling wasn’t a good idea knowing she was in a lot of emotional pain.

Now Lilly wasn’t in fact she was feeling so much lighter inside. Her past was now closed forever as she tried to fix the errors in her present day life. This case had brought out her inner strength and confidence that was now restored. Now just being in a relationship with Scotty was proof of the friendship they had.

Like Scully had said in the X-files” The best relationships are the ones that come from Friendships” That part was true about the maybe it took five years to get to this point but now it felt right. In fact the two could act or talk without feeling pressured or judged.

When the movie had ended Scotty turned to her” I still think that actress is amazingly beautiful and talented”.
Lilly smiled” So what you’re going to find her now” in a seductive voice. He too smiled” Nope not when I have a woman like you that’s so passionate, caring” as she cut off his words with a kiss. Breaking away Scotty continued to speak” Beautiful, sexy” before their kiss deepened some more. He knew this wasn’t one person he was going to ever cheat on.

After popping in another movie, she made a face” Cone heads” rising up an eyebrow” What is that a Vera flick”?

He chuckled” What you don’t like comedy Lil, I could put in a musical” before seeing her shooting him a death glare.

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Then from out of nowhere Scotty spoke about how violent his father had been with him. He always wanted to please him but that never happened; but became a weak son not to strong one like his brother Mike had been. After being beaten a lot Scotty promised himself he would be strong and not this weak person, but couldn’t escape it.

His own mother really wasn’t there emotionally for him, leading him to yearn to be loved. Lilly could understand it knowing her own mother made a lot of mistakes but in the end really did love her. That was something she realized and had to remember that, not the drunken Ellen Rush she grew up with. The Velveteen Rabbit made her smile which brought back a good memory, which Lilly kept inside of her heart.

Scotty sighed” They weren’t proud when I became a cop” as she touched his hand” You are the best partner I’ve ever had, especially how much you go to protect me”.
He moved a piece out of her hair” Why did you become a cop Lil” seeing the internal struggles inside building up. The wall was raising but then she fought hard to keep it down, wanting to tell her deepest secret. While her mind told her no, Lilly knew Scotty was the only person that never saw her as a freak. When the story started to unfold he sat there holding her close feeling sick to his stomach that someone had hurt his girl long ago.

After wards she felt a wave being taken off her chest. Maybe talking about it did help but saw the look in his eyes telling her he felt bad for what happened. Scotty did in fact feel that way as he kissed Lilly’s lips” That guy should be caught, but he doesn’t know how strong you are”.
Now trying to move on from the demons of their past, the two were later lying in bed together. As Lilly lay there on her side which listening to Scotty drawing in several breaths as he slept. He looked so peaceful before his breathing quickened. Lilly knew he still was scared of losing her forever, knowing his anger was the result from that.


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[cellogal]

Hey, I like this! Scotty in anger management is doubtless a good thing. And the two of them opening up about their childhoods...all kinds of wonderful.

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Sure enough he kept his promise as him and Lilly were at a baseball game. This time it was the Mets playing Philly but the thrilled inside of her grew. Scotty never expected her to like sports but it was clear that she did as Lilly began to cheer on the Mets instead of their home team.

“Shut up Scotty” she answered knowing he was going to say something” I like both the Yankees and Mets” He grinned” Wasn’t going to mention that Lil “before handing her a bottle of water. Lilly felt stupid for saying that but instead chowed down a hot dog. While she was on her second the Mets hit a home run.

Lilly stood up screaming loudly as Scotty sat there checking her out, but had to idea that their co-workers were watching the game inside of headquarters. For now acted innocent but she knew what he was doing. Upon returning how the two made their way upstairs before breaking apart. Since being together they both knew that this was working out better than expected.

After changing into a pair of Pajamas they laid in bed since it was too late for sex.
“Teach me some Spanish” Lilly said” About time I learn”.
Scotty leaned forward and kissed her” Usted es mi único” before translating” You are my one and only” seeing the love in her eyes “Que tal nosotros nos casamos” letting her figure it out. Lilly then realized by the way he was holding up one of her fingers” You asking me to marry you”?

“How about on our one year anniversary we do” she said before he spoke more Spanish to her. They ended up laughing when the conversation got out of control. Lilly couldn’t want to use some of the comebacks on Vera the next morning. Somehow the two overslept so much that her cell rang promptly at 10am.
“Um Boss, Scotty had a family emergency and I have a severe ear infection” before hanging up. Lilly then smiled before getting the idea to go ice skating at a rink. Halfway there two shots rang out as Scotty jumped on top of his girl. When Lilly looked over she saw blood knowing one of them hit him.
Now feeling for his pulse, she immediately called for an ambulance. His gunshot wound was much more serious then hers was, but knocked him unconscious. The whole ride over there Lilly held his hand closer on the verge of tears. After arriving she sat there knowing that he had saved her life again. As much as she valued her own life, she loved Scotty with all her heart.

A head wound was far more dangerous than hers was. Now touching the scar Lilly hoped his heart kept on beating.


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[cellogal]

Scotty teaching Lil Spanish is adorable. And...oh, snap!!!!

[longislanditalian2]

No Scotty doesn't die , but I do need some ideas