Coming To Terms.

[longislanditalian2]

I wrote this piece awhile back for the shippers, please be nice I'm trying to improve my writing.. . I probably will delete this piece if no reviews.

After seeing Nancy’s spirit disappear it didn’t make Scotty feel any better, in fact he knew he had to come to term with what happened to Elisa. He couldn’t have stopped her anyway since the voices were driving her insane, they were powerful. Perhaps she needed that escape but wanted one change to say goodbye to tell Elisa just how much he loved her.

Most important to hold the woman he had been with since childhood in his arms again. Scotty knew she was in a better place and needed to let go but thought back to the case.

When Lilly mentioned Elisa’s name, he knew she was also sensing his emotions. In the beginning while they interviewed Rachel; Nancy’s daughter the look in Lilly’s eyes told him that she missed her mother.

Losing a parent line bothered him knowing she had no parents left, growing up with an absentee father and a drunken mother wasn’t that great. Scotty felt terribly for Lilly especially seeing the sadness that had lingered around since her shooting.

There were times that she reminded him of a Zombie while her inner emotions wanted to come out. Both the shooting and her mother’s death were eating Lilly up inside, just like what he felt when Elisa had died. Scotty thought he was strong but inside he never really admitted to his internal feelings but tried to help others.

Sure he had gone through all the stages of grieving except the last one: Acceptance. Not even letting the note float away in the river wasn’t enough for Scotty to let go. He needed time but instead buried it all down inside just like his partner Lilly Rush had always done.

The two were alike in a lot of ways, trying to keep everything down pretended like everything was normal but in retrospect it wasn’t. Scotty blamed 

himself so much the it was important to him to bring Nancy Patterson the justice she deserved. In a sense gave him some closure like it did to Lilly. He then thought about her seeing how she changed after that car ride with John Smith. Lilly seemed much more alive but even showed off that beautiful smile when really she was hurting miserably inside.

He couldn’t help a person that was about to help themselves. Like him Lilly was afraid to open up knowing what people might thing of her, especially after all she had gone through. The chances of them getting together were slim after his stupid fling with Christina.

Why was he so stupid for sleeping with someone that Lilly had warned against?

The answer was simple: Grief mixing with Loneliness. Scotty didn’t want to be alone but was so overwhelmed he landed up almost destroying their friendship.

It was lucky that Lilly was even still talking to him or better yet trusted him. How she managed to do that was beyond him but Scotty proved his worthiness to her. Of all the stupid things Scotty knew he had to move on and change in order to live with himself.

As John Smith said” Everyone has something that keeps them tethered to this world”. For Scotty it was Lilly knowing everyday he had to protect a woman he cared about so much. Then it all came back to Elisa perhaps he was scared that the same thing would eventually happen to him. Losing his whole mind and jumping into large body of water.


tbc...

[eduardodelroice]

I usually don't like fanfic but this one was so cool because you quoted real episodes
The Road, Slipping, Start Up, One Night... I liked it a lot

[longislanditalian2]

I wrote this after the episode " Slipping", thanks for the review!!

Chapter 2


Lilly saw how much he had been hurting ever since Elisa had committed suicide. When her lips were about open they shut seeing that Scotty didn’t want to engage in any conversation, before gently touching his shoulder. There was no reaction from him but inside he did still blamed himself about losing Elisa know she was all alone without his love.

With one breath, Scotty looked up seeing those sapphire eyes looking into his, which came with more blame about how Lilly ended up with a bullet in her chest. This wasn’t supposed to have happened if she had just stayed home; he then realized he didn’t exactly stay home when Elisa had died either. Perhaps work was nearly a salvage to push their inner feelings down even deeper.

After Lilly had left, more guilt and pain was eating him up inside. While the minutes turned into hours he could no longer control what he was feeling. There was only one person that felt on everyday basics and had to live with that for so long. Now heading over in the rain Scotty walked fast while rain drops bounced off his head.

While his hand pounded at her front door, it opened as a very tired Lilly Rush dressed in jammies looked at him” It’s late Scotty” yawning slightly. Like a forceful wind Scotty blew into her apartment all rallied up while his strong heart began fiercely inside.



“I can’t take this anymore” he yelled” You know exactly what I am talkin about”. Lilly was taken aback before crossed her arms before Scotty looked into her eyes” Don’t act like you are stupid Lil, look at us. Doesn’t this bother you”?

Scanning around she shook her head” It does but can’t this wait”.

“No so you can pretend like nothing is wrong” reading right into her mind” Admit it you don’t think I see how scared and alone Lil I do”.

As usual Lilly put her walls trying not to let him get past them, she could admit what the one thing that had been secretly locked away. If that was reveled things would become worse since everyday would think how weak she was. Scotty’s anger grew rapidly at he began to throw a pillow away spooking her a little bit.

“SCOTTY STOP” Lilly yelled before breaking a vase in her living room. She was breathless while he followed her before more things broke. “I couldn’t stop Elisa or Ed from hurtin you, let both of you down”.

“Scotty you didn’t, you save me “as he saw her scar” See that wasn’t supposed to happen” before came an outburst from Lilly” IT WAS MY FAULT” as her voice screamed even louder. He shook his head” We both can’t hold onto any relationships, why are be both single still”? Circling around the fear grew deeper inside of Lilly she wanted to run but couldn’t escape her own past, knowing the fact she had to face everything from her shooting.



“We had to face this Lil” before Lilly yelled” I DON’T WANT TO BE ALONE” before realizing what she had just admitted. Scotty looked at her seeing how breathless she had become, as more began to come out” CAN’T LIVE THIS WAY ANYMORE PRETENDING LIKE I’M FINE BUT I’M NOT”.

Now there were tears in her eyes as Scotty lowered his voice “Come here I’m not going to hurt you”. She wanted to trust him but found she could no longer trust herself, before taking a brave step and allowing him to hold her. Scotty’s arms then held her closer while Lilly buried her face into his shoulder while slightly shedding tears.

He then gently rubbed her back” its okay Lil, not leaving you” as Lilly continued to hold on” I love you” his voice whispered.



TBC...

[longislanditalian2]

Chapter 3 is up, please review


While rubbing her back Scotty cried silently feeling so guilty for not being able to protect her before getting shot. Little did he know she was no longer thinking about it since realizing there was still hope for her? That was true as Lilly moved on with her life wanting to find out what her true happiness was, if it couldn’t have found in love. Perhaps she and her mother found that only for a while but it never lasted.



Lilly wanted a relationship to last but this wasn’t the time, she needed to find herself first. Now still holding onto him, it made her realize how much he truly cared about her. She knew the problem was with Scotty not getting over Elisa’s death to easily. He always blamed himself for everything but never took into consideration that not everything was his fault.

Scotty still needed to teach himself not to do this, but couldn’t help feeling paranoid that it was his entire fault. Now holding Lilly close he felt her hands running through his hair” Why are you scared”?

“I’m not” she said hearing the soft thuds of his heart in her ear. That sound was quite soothing to her but didn’t want to tell him everything that was hurting, as the quills like porcupine began sticking up in defense in case someone invaded her space. Scotty felt them as he reached up kissing her forehead as their eyes looked into one another with such love and concern. Now cupping her face, he stared into the sapphire eyes yearning to know what was behind them.

Lilly took glanced into his coffee bean eyes seeing a man had a heart of gold but couldn’t get past the one person who had died. Elisa still had his heart for all the right reason but she was just no lingering around as a ghost of his past which during the process added guiltier for what happened, not even she couldn't help Scotty try and move on.

Though Lilly had gotten a last goodbye from her more it was still hard to accept her really being dead and all, at the funeral only the squad showed up not Christina who was flying around some town getting into more trouble. Now left with just a sister whom she didn’t get along with, Lilly was once again left to deal with everything.

Somehow she had to deal with herself for a change and not everyone else’s problems. She was getting too old for this and wanted to do something to ensure her own loneliness would never kill her in the end. Lilly wanted a family of her own but had to make a decision about what her life really meant to her before that could happen.

Scotty too needed to understand that as well, but he was so lost and arrogant that it would be hard for him to work through this. However the two remained holding onto each other not wanting to let know how much they needed this, Lilly felt safe and comfortable in his arms before looking back into his eyes.

Could this really be happing as the two decided not to kiss each other, fearing that one kiss could kill their whole relationship? Sitting down as Lilly instantly rested her head on his shoulder still needing that comfort.

“I’m so lost Lil” he confessed” Can’t deal with it” before he lay back as she followed. Now hearing his heartbeat she breathed in slowly though they were friends it felt like they were growing closer step by step “ Not going to hurt you” Scotty whispered” Never would Lil” as the quills lowered but remained on guard.

Throughout the entire night the sound of his heart thumped softly as Lilly knew he was the only one who really understood her, but couldn’t fathom trying to rush into a relationship with him. That part 

was scary since every relationship turned into heartbreak which was something her fragile mind didn’t need right now.

It was clear that Scotty did love her, but their friendship was more important than love. She did trust him but how the hell were they going to stay like this without falling in love; it was hard especially that Lilly found him sexy and handsome.

“What the hell am I thinking “Lilly thought” He’s hot but he’s my friend” but somehow her heart was demanding love but not her mind. She couldn’t just get into one simple because of loneliness or that her body was craving a full hour of sex which it was, that was like being like her mother. Lilly couldn’t risk that anymore needed to get herself straighten out, but realized the problems were a part of her. Perhaps they were what kept her tethered to this world that made her who she was as a person.

After two hours of analyzing herself Lilly was tired of this, but knew she had to accept this sooner or later. Lifting up her head Scotty was fast asleep as she watched him sleep, he looked handsome with a hand resting on his stomach.

Pulling up the blankets closer Lilly got up letting her friend sleep soundly, while she went up snuggling against her own set of blankets. In her dreams they weren’t the same ones as before but much lighter ones which centered on her mother reading to her as a little girl. While Lilly dreamed about this two pictures of the victims lay on her nightstand reminding her that they too needed justice.



Call it creepy but she liked to wonder what they might have done if they were still alive. That image gave her strength to seek out their killers but also remind herself how everyday she protects the people of Philly the city she was born in.

By morning Lilly awoke as she showered and dressed, but left her hair down this time. Sure wearing it up in a ponytail reflected her feelings but now it was time for a change, before going downstairs. After pouring two cups of coffee, Lilly came over to the couch” Wake up Scotty” she whispered softly.

He moaned looking cute before opening up his eyes” Coffee” he managed to say before sitting up. While sipping the first cup Scotty breathed out” Sleep well”?

“Yeah no trouble” Lilly replied” Feeling better this morning”? He shrugged” Kept on seeing Elisa right before she fell into the river, then seeing you shot”.

The blonde sat down beside him” The voices told Elisa to do that, what if she knew she couldn’t take it any longer. That was her only way out nothing you could have done sometimes that is the answer. With me I’m glad you saved me, did you right thing”.

Scotty saw the scar as he gently touched it” I’m sorry Lil I failed you big time” before breaking down and crying. Lilly held onto him” No Scotty I caused this to happen, made that mistake of going into the room alone, cause I didn’t feel like living after my mom had died”.

He saw the look of sadness” Thought I could deal with it but couldn’t, lose the only parent I had left”.

Lilly shed a couple of tears as Scotty wiped them away” Still feel that way now”?



“No but I’ll always love her, like you feel about Elisa”.



TBC, if I get any reviews

[eduardodelroice]

I really like the format and you're really detailed about the story and that's good.
I was an amateur writer before and I liked this one

[longislanditalian2]

Chapter 4

For awhile Lilly took in the comfort of being in his arms needing to feel that protection knowing they needed this more than anything else. This started to spread warmth throughout her unloved broken heart which hadn’t been there before; she knew she was starting slowly to fall in love with Scotty. He too started acting on his feelings for her that had been buried so deep down inside, but just holding Lilly in his arms meant so much to him.

Letting go their eyes locked together as if wanting to kiss but didn’t. The feelings of love were swirling about but for some reason didn’t but Lilly felt the need to feel his firm lips upon hers. In fact she craved to be kissed then again it wasn’t the right setting as she turned going back upstairs, as Scotty sat down on the day bed wanting to hold her again.

The same thing was true for Lilly while letting out a loud sigh, knowing that there was a man downstairs that could comfort her right now. Halfway during the night she awoke reaching over wanting to be held and loved but the feeling of emptiness set in deep. Upon coming down Lilly saw Scotty curled up asleep on the daybed while watching his chest slowly rising and fall with each passing breath. He looked even more handsome but she wanted so much to rest her head on his chest hearing each beat of his heart soothe her sadness away.

Letting out a small breath Lilly went upstairs before passing by an empty room knowing how childless she felt inside, the yearning for a baby was present. While asleep later on Lilly found herself in a white hallway holding onto a little girl’s hand she looked sad before bending down” Why are so sad”.

The girl sniffled “I’m unborn not ever going to have a mommy” as Lilly stood there wanting to comfort her before seeing the child disappearing. Meanwhile Scotty was tossing and turning seeing the woman 

he loved putting a gun to her head before Lilly lay there dead on the floor bleeding. While holding her she blew away like dust leaving him all alone seeing his own future.

All the mistakes, he had made needing to face them but Scotty couldn’t change anything but felt guilty for not stopping Elisa from killing herself.

He breathed out before seeing himself holding Lilly after being shot, then her eyes closed before releasing her last breath. Scotty then held the woman he loved now dead as he held her close begging for forgiveness, until waking up.

Looking over Lilly stood there as she cradled Scotty’s head close. He could hear the sound of her heart beat while he cried.

“I’m okay” Lilly whispered softly as Scotty continued to listen to her heart. He heard every beat before resting back his head while she continued holding close his hand to her chest” Sorry Lil, I screwed up don’t think I’m good for anything anymore”.

Lilly shook her head’ you are more than a partner but a friend. Scotty” drawing in a breath ready to admit this” You mean everything to me”. His hand stroking her cheek feeling the tears streaming downward before pulling her closer as their lips brushed against softly but didn’t quite kiss. They both knew if they were going to try dating, rushing into things wasn’t certainly going to happen.

Sitting back up again Scotty held Lilly for a long time needing her comfort. She too closed her eyes while gently running her hands through the back of his head, while their hearts began beating at the same rate. Getting up Lilly went back upstairs trying to get herself back to sleep, but by the next morning he refused to get out of bed.

“C’mon need to work”.



“No screw up” Scotty replied from underneath the blanket as Lilly tried her best to pull them off with no success” Can’t solve this without you”. He turned over” Don’t need me Lil” before she sat down rubbing his back” Hey you hear me”. Scotty groaned” Not goin to work” thinking about the terror in her voice right before she had got shot, for that he was blamed for everything plus sleeping with a certain redheaded ADA wasn’t smart either.

Even while dating Elisa he cheated then lied to Lilly on their first day about the girl he had brought into the interrogation room. Feeling even guiltier he knew he had to chance knowing his future was only going to make him lonelier but one thing was true he was too into himself at times. While Scotty’s heart ached to be with Lilly he couldn’t act on his own feelings he had towards her.

This wasn’t her fault but perhaps they both didn’t know what love was really. For the most part love consisted of sex for him but when was the last time he had a real date probably since Elisa. Somehow Lilly too was thinking about that question knowing her love life seemed so bleak she hated to die along just like her own mother had.

“Can’t change the past Scotty, but we need each other now”.

He punched the mattress as she stopped him lifting the blanket seeing his face surrounded in tears. Unfolding his fist Lilly gently wiped the tears away as he peered into two sapphire eyes. She then calmly spoke” Stop blaming yourself, not everything you do is your fault”.

Scotty grew angrier” Tell me why people look at me like this”?

“Got to stop punching out people, that’s part of your problem. Don’t you see how your anger can be extreme”?




He thought about it before seeing Lilly’s eyes knowing he couldn’t lie anymore” My only defense”.

“You don’t think people piss me off, but I don’t go around hurting other people. I hate seeing how addict mothers treat their children knowing how my own mom was like that but isn’t my place to just lash out “.

Scotty breathed as Lilly gently rubbing his hand” Need help; I’ll be there for you”.

“ Callin me crazy”?

“ No just don’t want to lose you as my partner or friend” her voice was on the verge of tears especially after having the same dream night after night, knowing it was her biological clock ticking away. At least it wasn’t about her shooting which was a very positive thing. Scotty knew he had to do this for himself but felt week” I felt that way too” his own fear being evident in Lilly.

“Can’t live with the guilt about Elisa or anything else” she whispered” My problems will always be a part of me but I took have to move on. I want a family of my own wanting one change to be happy and in love. It hurts me that nobody’s there when I get home, face lonely nights”.

He understood too well what that felt like while stroking her cheek” Never thought about havin a family”.

“We don’t even have friends, just hang around with people we work with” getting him to realize more how dull their lives were” Got to change it Lil, you are too beautiful” as Lilly rested her head down on his chest while Scotty continued to hold her. While listening to the rain he gently rubbed her back soothing her sadness” Start counseling” as she lifted up her head seeing how serious he was.



Just two days after that Scotty started his first day at counseling. He hated bringing back memories of his childhood and Elisa but found that the problems went far back, slowly Scotty started speaking about how he felt weak inside as he tried to hold in his anger for once not wanting to be sent to anger management classes.


tbc..

[longislanditalian2]

Intense Chapter 5 is up, and Scotty's dealing with his emotional problems this time.
Somehow Scotty wasn’t alright with everything that had just happened; in fact he was growing more and tenser that it became unbearable to hold it in anymore. People had always blamed him for everything which gave Scotty the impression that he was a walking jinx that couldn’t keep together a relationship. Now on the couch with a gun in his hands he contemned his fate knowing this was the end; besides nothing else mattered to him anymore.

When Lilly grew worried she went straight to his apartment finding the door unlocked being on guard her eyes spotted Scotty sitting there with a gun. Her breathing then quickened as she slowly felt scared about being hurt” Put down the Gun” she spoke firmly.

Getting up Scotty pointed the gun directly at her chest, just a few centimeters where Ed had shot her. Lilly backed away” You don’t want to do this”.

“ Shut up Lil” before pointed it at himself” Get the hell away from me” while his nostrils flared. However Lilly didn’t give up knowing how depressed inside Scotty felt” I know what you are feeling being all alone not having anyone to love, or that ever relationship you’ve been in failed. Scotty I’ve been there but killing yourself isn’t the answer”.

The blonde knew she had to save her best friend from suicide” I still have hope but you are still my friend” before being thrown up against the wall. His hands were wrapped tightly around her neck preventing her from breathing as Lilly fought hard to stay alive; knowing how much she wanted from life.



Seeing the rage in Scotty’s chocolate eyes her heart rate increased knowing he wasn’t in his right mind at all now. Letting go she coughed letting the precious oxygen escaped into her lungs before grabbing the gun at her face” Maybe you deserve to die, again”.

“Please Scotty you don’t want to kill me; Hey remember that” adding a breathy” Hey you hear me”?

Flashes of that day started playing around in his mind, seeing himself holding Lilly just after being shot. Then seeing tagged by IAD making Stillman getting suspended for his actions knowing how stupid he was for all his mistakes. Even on the Cortez bust back in ’98 he couldn’t keep it together and ended up getting Ana killed; but the biggest was sleeping with Christina.

Entering Reality Scotty got up before heading into the kitchen before turning on the stove as Lilly breathed out heavily” Don’t “ on the verge of tears before seeing him putting his hand on the burner” NO” running closer but he reacted yelled in pain still keeping his hand there. Turning it off he hit her hard before Lilly pulled out her gun cocking it at his face” Don’t make me do this I don’t want to “.

Scotty bent down feeling the pain” Leave me alone” as she gently wrapped his hand in a towel. He then kicked her causing Lilly to moan out in pain from her stomach as he stormed out. Feeling more pain she breathed out avoiding tears knowing this wasn’t the time to be crying but upon getting up there were clearly marks around her neck from almost being strangled.



Clearly now she was scared but needed to find Scotty as an instinct told her not to. Listening to it Lilly went home avoiding telling anyone especially calling out sick the next morning, knowing she needed a day not to be bothered. In her mind she still had herself knowing she could change her future which was something she had her heart set on, trying to find her own bit of happiness.

Meanwhile Scotty was sitting in a motel room contemning his fate after getting bandaged up at the hospital, giving the doctors a false story avoiding the real truth to the matter. The more he thought about how strong Lilly was after being shot, he wondered about his own life in general. Banging ADA Thomas was wrong but he couldn’t help himself wanting that thrill of climaxing but knew it didn’t take away the loneliness deep down inside.

Then there was Charlene the woman from Tennessee that had gave him pleasure like to one else but she wasn’t right for him either. Lying back Scotty began thinking about what he really wanted out of love as an image came of Lilly came into his mind, but it wasn’t dirty thoughts. Actually in his mind he saw her good qualities he liked about her, not just that she was slender and attractive.

Now after hurting the women he truly cared about Scotty knew that Lilly wasn’t going to trust him; which now was another minus to their friendship. Breathing out he needed to remain here for the time being as more mental images of her floated into his mind; as Scotty began feeling aroused. NO he couldn’t pleasure himself just after assaulting Lilly in order to make himself feel better, knowing she was probably at home hurting badly.



Just sitting here in this crappy motel room Scotty went over to a sink as he pulled up the drain letting the cold water filling up. When it did he took in a deep breath before submerging his head underneath letting the icy feeling scare away the demons that had plagued him for so long, as flashes of Lilly’s face just after she had been shot began appearing.

Needless to say it didn’t work as Scotty then lit up a cigarette knowing he hated the smell but for now it helped him to relax while taking a sip of straight Vodka immediately disliking the taste. After awhile he was now drinking beer heavily trying to slip out of a reality but ended up falling out of bed as a sloppy drunk.

Sometime early the next morning Lilly found his car parked at a motel seeing that the door was ajar. Inside he lay there hung over on the floor as she felt the side of his neck; glad there was a pulse. There were scars on his body from burning himself seeing a lighter as Lilly pocked it away along with his gun which she stored in the glove compartment of her car.

However Scotty was clearly having a severe breakdown but she knew her injuries were consistent with this. Weary or not Lilly had to take charge and try to get him help knowing he was trying to kill himself for a reason. One thing she knew he wasn’t having sex last night even though Scotty was stark naked looking very well toned.



For one thing there was blood all over the sink along with it being full telling her that he tried to commit suicide last night. Upon hearing him rousing she came closer to Scotty” Hey” whispering softly” You hear me”?

“Head hurts” he mumbled as Lilly cradled his head in her lap” I’m here” knowing right now he needed comfort more than anything else. Then Scotty felt violently sick as he dragged himself into the bathroom throwing up several times before lying down on the bed in fetal position shaking incredibly hard.

Draping a blanket around him Lilly sat there” Elisa’s death wasn’t your fault either the voices told her or she couldn’t take hearing them anymore. She did it to take her pain away, but she’s in a better place now”.

Scotty moved around violently after feeling the pillows were gone as Lilly dropped them to the floor” Not letting you kill yourself, I didn’t not after almost dying alone. You can just give up on everything after this case”.

He moaned softly” Was a mistake Lil” turning onto his stomach. Lilly rubbed his back” So was I doesn’t mean anything anymore, we adults” realizing this second what she had just said. Maturity was coming into play now which was proving to be a good thing” Not everything is your fault and not Elisa dying was either just like I can’t blame myself for my mom’s death even though I miss her so much, can’t try to play hero when the person doesn’t want to be saved”.

Feeling him inhaling and exhaling she didn’t give up hope knowing they both needed each other right now.



TBC..

[longislanditalian2]

Turn of events, but I probably won't continued with this anymore after this. We'll See...


By the time the two started working on the Max Chapin case, Lilly had her sights now on Eddie Saccardo whom had been certainly catching her eye. Though she pretended not to even like him, which was very typical of her until the day they both reunited Max with his mother Priscilla. Scotty could see the looks shared between then knowing that Saccardo wanted to be with Lilly but wasn’t about to rush into asking her out.

He knew they had more of a sibling relationship which to him, Scotty felt more comfortable looking at Lilly like that. It wasn’t right to date someone just because they both have a deep friendship, plus the fact it quite possible wouldn’t work out. He didn’t want to break her heart or ruin their friendship because of that, hence why Scotty never asked Lilly out.

Besides Lilly needed someone who didn’t know her past, and different for a change. Scotty was still going to be there as a close friend, knowing he meant something to her, even though she didn’t realize that she did in fact trust him. There was something that Lilly didn’t know about him that Scotty had kept from just about everyone, a secret that had been eating him up inside for years.

He was mad and upset that Elisa had never told him about their daughter, until finding a death certificate for an infant daughter. Scotty now knew that was the reason why she had been missing for a couple of months, he felt upset about never meeting his own child. However had no idea where his daughter had been buried since Elisa went to great lengths to prevent him from finding out, that didn’t stop Scotty letting that eat him up inside.

One night Lilly found out after Scotty had let it out” Did you know that she was pregnant”?
Letting out a sigh he then spoke” She shut me out, until one night by accident I felt something moving inside of her stomach”?

Lilly took in a deep breath knowing how much she yearned to be a mother herself, aching to become pregnant so badly, however knew that this wasn’t about her.

“Tried to get her to talk about it but Elisa took off, guessing she had the baby somewhere” he sighed feeling saddened” Never got to meet my daughter Lil, would have loved her” before trying to suppressed the tears as Lilly found no evidence how she died.

Scotty felt the tears coming down slowly before Lilly breathed out” There is no record of any doctor’s overseeing her pregnancy, take it that Elisa hid it from everyone”.

He sat there” She wasn’t doing so well, the monsters came back and she disappeared. What if I had a chance to save our baby, Lil”?

Lilly took in deep breath, knowing how much this had been hurting him” We need to do a DNA Test to make sure you’re the infant’s father, she could have had other men or possibly had been raped”. This was important but Scotty was sure except that he felt the need to really make some sense of this...

“Elisa was found in a mental hospital, saying that the monsters got the baby, was in real bad shape”. A thought then rushed right through him” What if she killed her and didn’t realize that”?

Lilly took his hand” There isn’t any indication that Elisa gave birth in a hospital, under her real name. All it says here is Baby girl five pounds on August 14th 2001, at county hospital”.



Scotty felt even more depressed “She was Stillborn” as he began crying “Elisa left the hospital with her sister, still looking into where she had been buried”?

“Find her Lil, for me” as Lilly shook her head” I can’t Scotty please” until seeing the pain in his eyes. That night Scotty slept on the daybed still thinking about his little girl, knowing that she never had gotten a change to be born.

In the middle of the night he heard a tiny voice” Find me Daddy” before looking around seeing that there was no one there. However Scotty didn’t believe in seeing ghosts as the spirit of his little girl remained at his side, looking a lot like him” Daddy” trying to grab at one of his arms” Please” before her voice faded away.

He then heard a sound of a baby crying almost taunting him of the guilt, Scotty felt miserable but somehow Lilly did in fact sense that there was a spirit around him. Perhaps it was the daughter trying to guide him or simply because she had never gotten a chance to be born, as a rush of cold air hit her in the face.

By morning Scotty was still very grumpy after a lack of sleep last night, but could help but wonder if he really heard the voices last night. Somehow Lilly then got a hold of the autopsy which clearly stated that the baby was Stillborn, as she saw the infant’s face seeing how much it resembled her partner. Tears sprang out feeling sad for the baby, before Lilly set to work to try to find her grave.



Luckily she did, while Scotty‘s DNA was being run against the infant, but when the results finally came back the DNA matched to the infant. He felt sadden before Scotty pressed for a proper reburial of his daughter for one last goodbye to someone he didn’t get to meet but already loved.

A couple of weeks later the squad stood there while the white casket of little Caitlyn Valens was being lowered into the ground. Lilly held a white rose in her hands as Scotty walked closer kneeling down whispering something in Spanish, before looking up at the sky as if he was freeing her spirit with the white rose slipping down on top of her casket.

Stepping backward allowing, Lilly to also drop one there, as a sign of respect for a loss of her partner and best friend’s child; before gently was squeezing his hand. The two glanced over at each other in sympathy but Scotty was near tears thinking about that Caitlyn would have been seven years old by now, his little girl.

After the funeral Scotty made it clear that it wanted to be alone, as he kneeled down again looking very sad.

[eduardodelroice]

I liked ur story. Haven't you ever considered to write a complete episode...?
sorry for comenting until now. I usually don't go to fanfic

[longislanditalian2]

Actually I have, " Love is Blind" is an all episode fic that's been posted on here.


Not long after burying Caitlyn, Scotty felt the warm breeze running against his body knowing that she was alright in the heavens above with Elisa. He now was healing from old wounds that now had been closed up, but was glad to have Lilly near his side. Even though a change on romance would never happen since he always had considered her like a sister to him; since they two had that type of relationship.

Scotty knew he had to stop baring the blame of everyone’s problems, which he was now learning slowly. It was a learning process that came with Maturity but realized that he had to overcome what happened in the past and know it couldn’t be changed. Heading into headquarters things were changing as Kat and Vera flirted back and forth with each other, while a certain blonde looked up with those sapphire eyes of hers.

“Hey” she answered saying their secret code” You ready to return”

His lips curled into a smile” Yeah what are we up to “before seeing Vera bumping into Kat while they both laughed hysterically.

“You two want a room” said Scotty seeing how close the two were. Instinctively Kat pulled away shooting him her usual look.

Glancing over at her partner Lilly grinned” There was rumors swirling about us ".
Scotty took a sip of his coffee” Except the fact I think of you like a sister” as they both exchanged looks knowing that this was true. Besides it would feel like incest if they had slept together, for oblivious reasons.

Deep down he needed to figure him out, wanting to make amends with his own self. This wasn’t to save him in the long run but to have better understand what his true happiness was; but did he know what that had meant to him??

Surely not as Scotty then asked himself when was the last time he had done something he enjoyed not including work. The answer was a long sigh signaling that Scotty’s life was pretty damn boring in retrospect but still questioned his so called friendship with Lilly. He needed to spend time with her outside of work to know the real person behind the detective so to speak.
They both needed each other in order to finally find their own personal closure, but this wasn’t something neither of them could do alone.
“Lil want to do something after work” as she turned around knowing that he was clearly reading into her own thoughts.
She smiled back” Yeah” not pining up like a porcupine. This time Lilly didn’t run and bury her with the case as usual but wanted to have a social life, seeing that she couldn’t take being so alone any longer.
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Opening the door to the interrogating room the two exchanged looks upon seeing both Kat and Vera on the table kissing passionately.

Lilly then cleared her throat” Thought you only liked nurses”?

Kat was mortally embarrassed as she attempted to walk out before heading towards the bathroom as Vera still stood there while Scotty looked the other way, as he then grabbed his sports coat before darting into the men’s room.

However the rest of the day seemed to be full of drama until nighttime as both Lilly and Scotty both wearing street clothes walked around together. She enjoyed his company knowing that having a good friend too away her own loneliness; but the two ended at a bar having a few drinks. Neither of them were doing more talking than drinking which prohibited either one of them from getting drunk, however Scotty enjoyed his conversation with her.
By change Kat and Vera then joined them, which adding to the laughter. Nobody knew that these four friends were all detectives that each felt close to each other, especially since Vera’s arm was around hers at all times. However Scotty did it to Lilly more out of protection than love, he felt compelled to just ensure that his girl was safe.
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Around midnight Scotty walked her home being the gentleman that he was, before Lilly had noticed how hurt he still was.

His eyes were on her scar, as she let him feel it” It doesn’t hurt me anymore, just glad you saved my life” admitted this to him” That’s the past can’t be like this alone, maybe we both have to move on”.

Scotty nodded before squeezed her hand lightly before walking back in his place. He felt so much better just being out and not alone, perhaps he had to rethink his life and where it was taking him. Did he want a family and wife or was bachelor life best suited to him?
A couple of days later he took a vacation after everything that had happened, coincidently so did Lilly. They both were well in need of one for a very long time.




tbc.. There will be an L/S relationship starting pretty soon..